Friday, March 27, 2009

Expectation…


Expecting someone not to expect is in itself an expectation???
Does that make you any different from me...???!!!

Jinx!!!

I didn’t forget… !!!
I just didn’t remember… !!!

Monday, March 23, 2009

I MESSED UP!!!

I know I did…

Nervousness of tomorrow…
Apprehension of acceptance…
Fright of loosing…
Not trying to validate my actions…

Unnecessary opposition…
Collision of personality…
Question of self – worth…
Not trying to justify…

Cynical conduct…
Unjustifiable competition…
Needless arrogance…
Not trying to rationalize…

Utterly sore…
Definitely uncalled-for…
Entirely distressing…
& frustrating…

Not forgiveness …
Not trust…
Not love…
Just a chance…

To win you all over again!!!

September 24th, 2008

WOULD YOU HOLD ME FOREVER…???!!!

Life’s mystery…
My myths…
And miseries…
Where’s all the peace gone???

Life’s reservations…
My restrictions…
And reach…
Where’s all the peace gone???

Life’s faults…
My failures…
And facts…
Where’s all the peace gone???

Life’s illusions…
My intellect…
And ills…
Where’s all the peace gone???

Life’s amusement…
My astonishment…
And anger…
Where’s all the peace gone???

Where is my peace???
Am at peace in your arms…!!!
Would you hold me forever???
Would you???


July 30th, 2006

LIKE THAT…!!!???

A presence, so silent…
A smile, so stirring…
Like that???
Hmmm… like that!!!

Bolt from the blue…
Funny flutter in the heart…
Like that???
Hmmm… like that!!!

Boundless leaps of surprises…
Awe-inspiring moments…
Like that???
Hmmm… like that!!!

Terrifying jolts…
Bizarre hints…
Like that???
Hmmm… like that!!!

Stunner at earnestness…
Collateral of adoration…
Like that???
Hmmm… like that!!!

Hmmm… Like that!!!
I like that!!!
TOTALLY!!!

April 2nd, 2006

THAT’S YOU…!!!???

Sure and sparkling…
Pure and puzzling…
Cure and calming…
Think that’s you???

Might with mischief…
Bright with belief…
Delight with discipline…
Think that’s you???

Dear and dressy…
Near and nutty…
Clear and cuddly…
Think that’s you???

Well… that’s you…

Exclusive, matchless and irreplaceable…
Pensive, fearless and commendable…
Decisive, endless and irresistible…
That’s you…!!! Just you…!!!

January 5th, 2006

GENERALLY…!!!???

A smile… A laughter…
Generally…!!!
A smile, with a dash of blush…
A laughter, right from the heart…
Generally…???!!!

A fantasy… A splash…
Generally…!!!
A fantasy, coupled with a mystery…
A splash, of an assortment of feelings…
Generally…???!!!

A trance… A phenomenon…
Generally…!!!
A trance - spell bound…
A phenomenon – castle in the sky…
Generally…???!!!

An interval… A faith…
Generally…!!!
An interval, spine-tingling and comprehensive…
A faith, zealous and matchless…
Generally…???!!!

An inclination… A finale…
Generally…!!!
An inclination, elusive and vulnerable…
A finale, mystifying and ambiguous…
Generally…???!!!

Generally??? I don’t know…!!!
Generally??? Perhaps…!!!
Generally??? I guess so…!!!


September 12th, 2005

I KNOW NOT...???!!!

The unexpected pact...??!!
The unforeseen hope...??!!
The unanticipated result...??!!
I know not!!!

A surprising start...??!!
A startling drive...??!!
An astonishing path..??!!
I know not!!!

Bewildering thoughts...??!!
Astounding truths...??!!
Soothing companionship...??!!
I know not!!!

Predicting... The best..??!!
Dreaming... The unfelt..??!!
Feeling... The untouched...??!!
I know not!!!

You...??
I know not?!
Me...??
I know not?!
You and me...??
I know not?!

I know not yet....!!!

September 8th, 2005

WHO… YOU OR ME…???!!!

Pensive…? Or Vigilant…?
Illusive…? Or Transparent?
Baffled…? Or Liberal…?
Was it you or was it me…???

Jittery…? Or Tranquil…?
Brash…? Or Amiable…?
Intolerable…? Or Acceptable…?
Is it you or is it me…???

Pushy…? Or Shy…?
Obtuse…? Or Mysterious…?
Secretive…? Or Corrupt…?
Was it you or was it me…???

Desperate…? Or Serene…?
Blind folded…? Or Unqualified…?
Whimsy…? Or Stanch…?
Is it you or is it me…???

Gain… Yours or mine…???
Pain… Yours or mine…???

Insane… You or me…???
Sane… You or me…???

You or me…???


June 7th, 2005

IS IT JUSTIFIED…??!!

A few glimpses…
A few smiles…
A few chats…
Does that justify my tears..??!!

My heart over my mind…
My guts over my intuition…
My fancy over my need…
Does that justify my tears..??!!

Bits of crazy heights…
Glimpse of unknown light…
And a zillion conflicting fights…
Does that justify my tears..??!!

Your hesitant desires…
Your pondering mind…
Your indecisive attitude…
Does that justify my tears..??!!

A bubble of thrill…
A bitter treat…
An enticing tragedy…
Does that justify my tears..??!!

My concern and care for you…
My interest and curiosity in you…
My affection and respect for you…
Does that justify my tears..??!!

All is fair in not just love and war… but life in general!!!
But does that really justify my tears…???!!!
Does it???????


June 6th, 2005

MATTER ABOUT MATTERS!!

Money, mansion and might…
Why does it matter that much…?
Prestige, politics and position…
Why does it matter that much…?
Corruption, community and conflicts…
Why does it matter that much…?

Health matters…
Yes, it does…!!!
Job matters…
Yes, it does…!!!
Relationships matter…
Yes, it does…!!!

Parents matter!!!
But what is the matter with them at times!!!
Buddies matter!!!
But what is the matter with them at times!!!
Colleagues matter!!!
But what is the matter with them at times!!!

Dreams, desires and destiny…
Does matter…
Passion, past and pleasure…
Does matter…
Life, love and laughter…
Does matter…

What really matters???
It’s for you to decide… But be sure of it…
Because………… It really does MATTER!!!


March 25th, 2005

WHAT’S IT??? (WANNA GUESS)

Think you can seize it? Yet slips away…!!
Think you own it? Nobody can…!!
And think you could foretell? I bet not…!!!

Sometimes it’s spine-chilling…
Sometimes it’s just astounding…
And sometimes quite puzzling…!!!

Everything undergoes a change with it…
Even do a few dreams…
And not to forget, even relationships…!!!

You can’t alter it, but it mends and bends you…
You can’t play with it, but at times amuses you…
You can’t cheat on it, it could…!!!

There’s no fast forwarding…
Absolutely no rewinding…
Nor a pause to it…!!!

What’s it…!!!
What’s it…???
Of course it’s TIME!!!

Looking back… just to learn…
Looking forward… just to plan…
And the present… just to live…

TIME!!!… There’s no messing with it!!!
TIME!!!… Surely waits for none!!!
TIME!!!… More of it is always less!!!

December 31st, 2004

SOMEONE SPECIAL…!!!

This is for Nishchal
The only other lucky person than me…

Want to tell you about someone…

The lady, who bore all the pain to bring you to life…
The lady, who loved you much before you saw this world…
The lady, who dreamed about you all day even before she saw you…

The one, who would do anything for your happiness…
The one, who would fight against all odds to see you smile…
The one, who will live for your dreams to be realised…

The first, who will have tears when you feel the slightest pain…
The first, who will be more than happy to see your achievements…
The first, who will be there whenever you need…

A friend, to share anything and get the best of the advice…
A friend, who is ready to do anything for your best…
A friend, who will always be around - no matter what…

The only one, who will protect you from every wrong…
The only one, who will forgive you and forget too…
The only one, who will always have time for you…

A selfless soul…
An angel from heaven…
A package of just everything so nice…
That’s a Mother…

You are one lucky guy…
Thinking how I know…
Because she’s a reflection of my mom…
You can never pay back to a mom like this!!!


December 28th, 2004

NISHCHAL… MY BABY BOY!!!

A wonder…
I know not yet… but wonder most about…!!!

The warmth…
I haven’t felt yet… but feel in my heart…!!!

A delight…
Never knew anything like this existed…!!!

The desire…
To make all his wishes come true…!!!

A pleasure…
Am sure it will be… to hold him…!!!

The sentiment…
A love which grew without my knowledge…!!!

A connection…
So virtual… but yet damn strong…!!!

His smile… such a pleasure…
His sparkling eyes… just lights me up…
His voice... has a punch in it...
His expressions… super cute…
His innocence… so adorable…

Just totally adore everything about him…!!!


December 28th, 2004

WHOSE WHO…?????

Strength of my endurance…
Custody of my conviction…
Steady espouse for my life…
Charismatic, suave, and debonair…
Who do u think that is???
That’s my Pappa!!!

Boundless heap of love…
Healer of my soul…
Assurance of my peace…
Tender, stanch, and enigmatic…
Who do u think that is???
That’s my Mom!!!

My most mysteriously electrifying bequest…
My unanswered intense connection…
My endless-deep hidden joy…
Cognizant, vigor, and doting…
Who do u think that is???
That’s my Smi dear!!!

A dazzling persona…
A vivacious pal…
A protective brother…
Exceptional, zealous, and distinguished…
Who do u think that is???
That’s my Jiju!!!

My life’s delight…
My unknown ecstasy…
My sky-scraping happiness…
Dazzling, enchanting, and adorable…
Who do u think that is???
That’s my Nishi baby!!!


November 13th, 2004

CHANGING YESTERDAY…??? KNOWING TOMORROW…???

Shattered dreams…
Tattered emotions…
Lifeless life…
Crushed feelings…
Is this the humour of the universe…………!!!???
Can yesterdays be changed, and tomorrows be known??

Unforeseen worst…
Breach of faith…
Devastated credence…
Bumpy paths…
Can decisions be pre-lived………!!!???
Can yesterdays be changed, and tomorrows be known??

Jerky past…
Horrified future…
Traumatized present…
Sore sentiments…
Are there borders to the future………!!!???
Can yesterdays be changed, and tomorrows be known??

Awkward… Embarrassing… Knotty…
Unnerving… Torture… Comatose…
Anguish… Agony… Grief…
Are all sufferings of the wrong choices…
Wish for an alternate live…
Can yesterdays be changed, and tomorrows be known??

WISH I COULD……


November 8th, 2004

WHO ARE YOU…???

You walked into my life… Out of the blue…
Surprisingly you read my mind…
From nowhere you became a part of my life…

A meeting that was so unexpected…
A feeling that was so different…
A connection that was so weird…

Am glad about out meeting…
Am happy about the feeling…
And am delighted about our connection…

You listened to every word I spoke…
You made a note of my dreams…
You felt my every emotion…

My silence…
My sentiments…
My sensitivity…
You know it all…

Dreams do come true… I just got to whisper them to you…
Life is a puzzle… you’ll always help me solve it…
Anything and everything for you… that’s what you always say…
The importance of time… I know it because of you…

My troubles… disturbs you…
My happiness… is what you pray for…
My future… is you concern…
I… Is who matters the most to you…

Who are you…???????
Now I know…
You’re a Prince…MY PRINCE!!!

20th July, 2004

NOTHING REALLY…!!!

You are around…
Just so close… that a stretch of my hand can touch you…
Yet far…!!!

You are on my mind…
Thoughts of which make me blush…
Blush and blush…

So hard to tell my inner self that you don’t turn me on…!!!
So hard to think of anything but you…!!!
So hard not to get carried away…!!!

Don’t make it tough for me…
Hey… don’t get too close!!
You don’t want me to loose control!!!


July 4th, 2004

YOU AND LOVE

I don’t know if it is YOU or LOVE …
That brought this boundless difference in my life …
Because both You and Love came to me as a delightful package!!
You were alien … and so was love …
Getting to know You, is getting to know love …
Getting to know life and getting to know myself!!!


December 14th, 2003

IMAGINE ME WITHOUT YOU

Imagine the oceans without salt…
Imagine the roses without petals…
Imagine the sky without those clouds…
Can you??
Can you imagine me without you???

Imagine your cell phone without currency…
Imagine your pen without ink…
Imagine your wallet without cash…
Can you??
Can you imagine me without you???

Imagine fish without water…
Imagine flowers without fragrance…
Imagine a lamp without wick…
Can you??
Can you imagine me without you???

Imagine work without motivation…
Imagine friendship without trust…
Imagine love without passion…
Can you??
Can you imagine me without you???

Imagine surprises without excitement…
Imagine happiness without smiles…
Imagine pain without tears…
Can you??
Can you imagine me without you???

Imagine darkness all day…
Imagine life without colours…
Imagine songs without rhythm…
Can you??
Can you imagine me without you???

Can you imagine ……………… me WITHOUT you????
Can you??
I just wouldn’t be ME!!!
I am NOTHING without YOU……….!!!!


November 17th, 2003

CALL IT WHATEVER YOU WANT!!

A burning desire!
A wild fantasy!
A feeling so damn strong!

An urge…?
A fascination…?
An illusion…?

Pleasure or pain…
Some think it’s a sin…
And I think its love…

Call me insane…!!
Its something so plain…!!
Unless you understand the flame!!!!


November 24th, 2003

WHY DO I LOVE YOU

Wondering why I love you…

Is it because you make me smile?
Is it because you make me strong?
Is it because you make me feel special?
Or
Is it because you are naughty?
Is it because you are sensitive?
Is it because you are matured?
Or
Is it that spark in your eyes?
Is it the truth in your voice?
Is it the warmth in your touch?
Or
Is it because you understand my silence, and me?
Is it because you listen to my words and my heart?
Is it because you know what I need and me?
Or
Is it because you can admire what I admire?
Is it because you can dream what I dream?
Is it because you can feel what I feel?
Or
Is it just because you like me and I like you?
Is it just because you care for me and I for you?
Is it just because you know me and I know you?
Or
Is it because you can connect to me?
Is it because….. ? Because ……
I don’t know ….
All I know is … I love you … I love you lots…..


October 10th, 2003

REASON TO LIVE

All my life I’ve been waiting for …..

A reason to smile
A reason to dream
A reason to blush
A reason to change
A reason to wait
A reason to improve
A reason to know
A reason to pray
A reason to hold on through ups n downs
A reason to get up after falling
A reason to wipe off those tears
A reason to want and be wanted
A reason to care and be cared for
A reason to hug and be hugged
A reason to kiss and be kissed
A reason to surrender my body and soul

A reason ….. just a reason to live …
You came by … and that was what I was waiting for …
Reason to live … for me
Reason to live …for you
Reason to live with you!!


October 8th, 2003

WHAT’S LIFE!!!

What’s life without…
Roses and daises,
The misty mornings,
And the lofty mountains.

What’s life without…
The moon lit nights,
The rains all day,
And the small streams.

What’s life without…
A problem,
An aim,
And a challenge.

What’s life without…
A little trouble,
Tears,
And pain.

What’s life without…
A smile,
Love,
And lots of laughter.

What’s life without…
An impossible dream,
A heart-break,
And a secret desire.

What’s life without…
Music and dance,
Being naughty,
And imagination.


What’s life without…
Fun,
A best friend,
And a fight.

What’s life without…
Parents,
Sticky relatives,
Crazy neighbors.

What’s life without…
Having a crush,
Madly being in love,
And a weird fascination.

What’s life without… YOU!!!
IT JUST IS’NT COMPLETE!!!


May 14th, 2003

TICK… TICK … TICK …

Seeing the clock tick…
Every second the needle moves,
Every minute the needle moves,
And every hour too!

Seeing the clock tick…
Reminds me of the past,
Shows me where I am right now,
And what should be done for the future.

Seeing the clock tick…
Shows how close I am to my dreams,
Shows how near I am to the truth,
Shows when I’m going to be with you!

Waiting for the right time and the right place … with the right guy!!

Tick… Tick … Tick….


May 13th, 2003

I DID … I DO, WITH A DIFFERENCE

I did live
I did smile
My heart did beat
My heart did ache
I did miss someone.

Nothings really changed…
I still live
I still smile
My heart still beats
My heart still aches
I still miss someone.

But there’s a whole new feeling!!!
There is now a reason for my life,
A dream to b realized..
There is now a reason for my smile,
And I continue to do so…
There is now a reason for my heart to beat,
To a new cheerful tune …
There is now a reason for my heart to ache,
Because I’m lost without him…
There is now a reason for missing someone,
Which shows I need ….

This reason has brought a meaning to me and my very existence!!!


May 12th, 2003

WITH A REASON, WITHOUT A REASON

He's the one who makes me smile,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who brings a tear,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one whose with me,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who tells me why,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who brought the rainbow,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who means a lot,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who knows it all,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who hears me well,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who knows I need,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who made a difference,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who takes my non sense,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who is so very naughty,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who is just for me,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who cares a hell lot,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who makes me write,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who is my dream,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one who loves me lots,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one whom I love,
With a reason, without a reason.

He's the one,
With a reason, without a reason.


February 14th, 2003

I NEED YOU MOST

I need you most
When I'm lonely
When I'm sad.

I need you most
When I'm excited
When I'm happy.

I need you most
When I'm worried
When I'm tensed.

I need you most
During the nights
During the day.

I need you most
When I'm high
When I'm low.

I need you most
When I know what to do
When I don't know what to do.

I need you most
During the best of times
During the worst of times.

I need you most
When I need a hug
When I need a kiss.

I need you most
When I have plans
When I don't have plans.

I need you most
When I need a shoulder
When I need to smile.

I need you most
When there's music
When its silent.

I need you most ……
I need you most ……
To say in a single word,
I need you most ……
ALWAYS!!!!!!

January 25th, 2003

I KNOW!!!! YOU AND ME!!!!!

I can hear you even when you are silent,
I can feel you through your voice
And I know you do too.

I can talk to you without you being around
I can dream for hours about you
And I know you do too.

I can think about you all day ...
And sometimes even a day doesn’t seem enough
And I know it’s the same with you.

There's a sparkle in my eyes and a smile on my face
even when I just think about you.
And I know it’s the same with you.

The distance parting us pinches
And this thought makes the heart heavy
And I know you are going through the same.

I know I'm crazy .... just like you
I know I'm naughty ... not as much as you
I know I'm concerned .... same as you are
I know I'm in love .... and so are you!!!!!!!

I know I can count on you, always ....
And let me tell you, You can do too!!!!!!!!


December 28th, 2002

LOST!!!

The night is dark
there isn’t any moon
You know how the sky feels ...????
Like I'm feeling without you ...
LOST!!!!!!

Morn, noon and night
Lost in your thoughts!!!


December 28th, 2002

SHORT AND SWEET

This and That
Here and There
Nothing and Everything
Just all reminds me of YOU!!!!


September 6th, 2002

LOVE?!?!?!?! ………

When you fall in love
you don't realise
where you'll end up ....
how you'll end up ....
when you'll end up ....

Its like a fantasy game
everything's unexpected;
Its like expecting the unexpected ....
maybe the good or the bad.

It maybe the sweet beginning .... or the bitter end ....
of EVERYTHING!!!


July 24th, 2002

WHEN YOU LOVE

When you love someone ......
you learn to share,
you learn to give without expecting,
you learn to be patient,
you learn new things;

When you love someone ......
you find happiness in his happiness,
you find the world around very nice,
you find things happening just right,
you find yourself very happy;

When you love someone ......
you feel anxious,
you feel the agony,
you feel the love,
you feel great too;

When you love someone ......
you want him to be happy,
you want him to be with you,
you want him to say - "I love you",
you want him to be all yours.


July 24th, 2002

SOMEONE'S THERE .....???? ALWAYS THERE .....????

Someone's always there ........ For me .......
............ to laugh with me, when I'm happy
............ to console me, when I'm sad
............ to lend his shoulder when I cry
............ to give his kerchief to wipe it off
............ to hold me tight, when I'm sad
............ to hug me, to show he cares
............ to hear to me, when I need answers
............ to be with me, because I like it
............ to come in my dreams because I dream about him
............ to kiss me, because I want him to
............ to feel me, because I feel nice
............ to love me, because I love him
............ to be mine, because I'm all his.
THAT someone's always there ........ always ............. just for me!!!!!


July 19th, 2002

THINK.... THINK ... THINK???!!!

Have you ever thought, why you think?
Have you?
What makes you think....
What makes you think about something ...
What makes you think about it so much ......

Could be LOVE or FEAR!!!

I know why I think ...
I think because ....
I like what I think, and I think what I like
I think because ...
I enjoy what I think, and I think what I enjoy
I think because ....
I love what I think, and I think what I love

And hey!!! The best of all it makes me smile .... puts the bestest smile on my face ...
What more do I need!!!!
So why not think, think n think!!!! ....... about that special thing in life!!!!


June 5th, 2002

SITTING HERE

Sitting here, I'm not feeling fine…
Sitting here, I feel there's something wrong…
Sitting here, I feel an empty space,
though in the crowd…

Sitting here, I feel like talking and talking, but not with these around…
Sitting here, I know what I'm missing…
Sitting here, I just wished the most impossible thing!!!
Sitting here ........ Sitting here .... I wish you were with me!!!

Sitting here I just realised ..... how much you mean to me.


June 4th, 2002